I speak on the intensity of my early success, where I had my idol, the legendary MC Storm, dancing on my set while I was still a student. But behind the stage lights, I was battling a "crazy" mental landscape that eventually led to a diagnosis of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). I’m open about why I had to walk away from the hardcore scene for over a decade to find myself again and how a simple CD of 40 hip hop instrumentals literally saved my life by giving me a new way to channel my therapy into lyrics. We dive deep into my creative evolution, exploring the "flow state" in the studio and why I believe music is a form of spiritual nourishment. We talk about my upcoming projects, including the 15-track album Farmland, and the story behind my social commentary track "Cartoons". From the thriving artistic melting pot of Bristol to the "matrix" of social media, I share my views on being an authentic light in a dark world and teaching the next generation to break the cycles of trauma. This episode is packed with hard-won wisdom, humor, and the unfiltered truth of an artist who has seen it all and is still standing.

Key Moments:

00:03:00 – How did growing up with a rock and roll father and a poet brother influence my writing?

00:08:25 – What is the reality of living with BPD and how does it affect my music?

00:09:50 – What was it like having my idol, MC Storm, dancing on my set when I was just a kid? 00:14:03 – Why did I walk away from the hardcore scene at the height of my fame?

00:16:52 – How did a gift of 40 hip hop instrumentals "literally save my life"?

00:19:30 – Why is Bristol considered such a unique "melting pot" for artists and musicians?

00:32:00 – What was it like being the first hip hop act to perform in Bristol’s city center?

00:44:30 – What is the "flow state" and how do I tap into it during recording?

01:05:40 – How am I working to heal past traumas and break cycles for my children?

01:13:00 – Why do I feel an obligation to be a "light" and give purpose to my pain?

01:14:20 – What is "spiritual nourishment" through frequencies and maneuvering the matrix?

01:30:22 – What is the message behind my track "Cartoons" and its look at society?

01:35:00 – Why did I delete my Instagram and how do I manage my mental health online?